my feel now

blogeeey i want to tell something about my feel now. hem i felt, very different from the usual. feelings of jealousy that i was originally granted only for a long time into something that makes me upset with the incident that occurred in events he and i and........... a friend whom i consider a good friend all these years. i previously thought that she and him are friends just ordinary, but gradually a sense of the opinion that "this woman" is very close to him (the boy was i love). whereas, these women already have a boyfriend who is none other than close with him. i do not know what they meant, what's wrong with them, i just really really really feel jealous when i see them so close! now, all associated with her, not with me anymore. on wednesday, i read something that made me cry in the heart. at once, i immediately contacted my good friend, SHILA. while I was talking with her, i'm fun to see his facebook and ...... what i see? recent unusual activity he did with the others before. at that moment i felt the tears very deep destruction. i think, he's enough to make me like this! cry over something he'd never know from me. two times i made like this. whether I should always expect love and always desire it? i think, is really time for me to forget him , and think only as a friend, no longer considered as a very boy i love. but when i met him, my affection to her huge question appears again and my heart, whether i can or not remove him from my memory. first time when i fall in love with him, i felt i could get him but it turned into something that is not possible. i was patient enough to be treated like this, until whenever he would never realize how much i loved him. i think now is, how to forget him and i can accept other men who care about me? only that the constant burden my mind. i do not know what to do especially, this time I give up! I also have a limit of patience. now I have always been proud to him, so he realized that what he did was make me hurt. ohhhh blogeeey, but the reply was asked if until now i still love him? the answer is, yes. because not that easy to forget the meaning in our lives; ') although now i was on stage forget him. i think, one can only make me forget, he is the way he's dating someone else. i know, it'll be very sick and very hurt, but if you do not want to when i always love people who never realized that he loved me. okeeey, that feeling i feel right now. hopefully women who are close to him to be away from him, because her boyfriend very, very fond of this woman. let him dating with someone else .

*Nadya Febrina*